Adventures of Spirit

My spiritual adventures and manifesting discoveries


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Just Going For It

Just as this post title states, I am just going to start writing without knowing the outcome here. My blog posts have been a bit sparse and slow in coming, as my time has been more devoted to school and continuing to let go of barriers I have placed around my capacity for happiness.  Manifesting a happier, healthier life is always an interesting process.  Every time I run into a wall of resistance, I know it could take a good amount of detective work to figure out what this barrier is constructed of.  It can be upsetting at times. However, if I keep my intentions clear and I am willing to go through the emotions, my guidance will get me to my destination.  No matter what the actual goal or outcome is, this always leads to a deeper understanding of myself and a deeper capacity for love.

My latest detective work revolved around me allowing a wonderful, flexible, high-paying job I can perform from my new home. I was told by two highly developed psychic/energy healers that this will certainly come to pass.  In a spiritual card reading, I also pulled two cards for myself that confirmed this outcome. I have no doubt this manifestation will come into my life path soon.  It is also interesting to note that both the psychic/energy readings and my card reading brought to my attention that I need to give this desire over to God and stop overthinking things. In other words, let go of the paddles and go downstream, as Abraham Hicks so often says. I was only getting in my own way and causing myself more dis-ease and illness.

Another bit of guidance I received from the Abraham Hicks cards, was to tell a different story of my past. A book I  am currently reading called The Highly Sensitive Person, by Elaine N. Aron, Ph. D., also suggests how to retell stories of upsetting events from your past. For example, instead of thinking I nearly failed out of my senior year in high school because I didn’t do my work and I missed a lot of school days, I could reframe it as I was really suffering through a massive amount of depression and personal pain, and my body and mind was experiencing sensory overload both from home and school. How could I expect to handle the pressures of my senior year when all my energy was going toward survival. After taking the initial blame away I could finally reframe it as, I did the best I could with the internal and external resources I had available at the time. Perhaps then it wasn’t all bad as I did accomplish a great deal despite my challenging circumstances and it really is alright. Everything I experience is essentially good because it leads me toward growth and self-discovery. My resulting capacity for love is huge! So really, I succeeded in my goal of developing myself as a spiritual teacher.

Through this current discovery process, the more I let go, the more I gain. I tend to be rigid in my routines and expectations for myself and need to remember there is no such thing as linear time, it is all happening at once in endless realities I am choosing at each instant of my existence. There is no need to worry. I can ALWAYS choose something better and it is NEVER too late.

At first thought, the idea of just going for it would suggest action, but the more I relearn the art of manifesting, the more I realize it is about relaxing into love and taking inspired action when it feels best to do so. And by that I mean, go about your day as you would blessing it with ease and harmony, and when you feel that delicious inkling to just do something you have been wanted to do or a sudden inspired impulse, by all means, do it! The outcome is usually joyful and exciting or just a feeling of satisfied relief. I picture it as turning around to face front, relaxing your death grip on your oars, and enjoying what is right in front of you while directing your boat with ease when necessary or when wanted. The first step though is always just relaxing. I also see myself as a child learning to float of my back, head back, arms out, belly slightly up, and just breath…that relaxes me just thinking of it.

“You may never know what results come from your action. But if you do nothing, there will be no result.” ~ Gandhi~

“The path to success is to take massive, determined action.” ~ Tony Robbins~


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Saying “Yes!” to my Gifts

Recently, I have become aware that I have certain gifts as a healer. We all have gifts to heal, but I was encouraged to develop a specific gift of energy work to bring healing and love to others.  I believe we all have what one would term “psychic” ability. It is our intuitive ability, our “gut” feeling about things. Or it is our ability to pray and speak to God/spirit/the universe/our higher selves.  Whatever it is labeled, it is a powerful innate force within every single person. All of the unseen energies of the world affect us greatly in our daily lives. The energy of gravity keeps us physically rooted to this planet earth. The energy of sound waves delights our ears with music, conversation, or noise. Light energy gives our eyes a symphony of colors and shapes that we interpret as we like. There is the energy that courses through our body from the miracle of cells, composed of atoms, composed of particles.  I have always been a very sensitive person to the energies I feel in a room, in which I reacted to by being shy as a child because I did not understand what was happening. Now I know I was picking up on all the energy of the people around me and I did not know how to interpret it all; it felt overwhelming and scary.

I developed many disorders as a teenager and young adult to cope with my sensitivity and created negative life experiences because of this misunderstanding. I just didn’t know this sensitivity was a gift!  As an adult, the more I learn of the energetic and spiritual realms, the happier I become. I now know, life is not about toil and struggle. It is not A=B=C.  Life is a dance, it can be fun to come up with new ways things can be accomplished and created, to take a break from routine, to delight in the unexpected.

I recently received my 2nd spiritual reading from a lovely psychic; whom I must say has changed my life since my soul led me discover her over a year ago at a spiritual expo.  As I sat down to listen to a mini lecture of what she does for her clients, she picked me for a free demonstration.  My intuition told me I would be selected for her demonstration and she proceeded to hand out cards with a number on them.  When she called my number I walked up to the chair in front of the audience.  She balanced my chakras, then whispered in my ear, ” Have you been looking for a job?”

I replied, “Yes.”

She then whispered, “Don’t worry. You will find one in about two months.”

I was stunned and excited. Two months later I was hired for my current full-time job.  As I began wanting more confirmation on my which way my life was headed, I scheduled a full reading with her about six months later. She confirmed things I never thought would happen to me.  These were good things, getting married, having children, having a successful career as a mural artist, and eventually a writer.  I wrote as fast as I could so I could recount all the exciting details to my mother when I returned home.  I learned who my spirit guides were and which angels were around me and even received a beautiful message from my grandmother, whom I had never met.  I left floating on a cloud and became transfixed by my exciting future ahead.  She left me with hope for my life that I had never experienced before.  I was terrified of repeating negative family patterns and now I stand confident to create the life of my dreams.  She also told me during that reading I would be moving into my own place again in May of the next year.  It is now March and I moving!  Needless to say I trust her readings. She is humble, accurate, and a very healing person to be around.

During my second reading, what impressed upon me the most was that I am a healer. I think it was because I always knew this from the time I was very young. In kindergarten, I had this strong desire to be like Jesus, selfless, kind, and a healer. When I was a bit older I wanted to be like Mother Theresa and Princess Diana. I also adored my grandfather, one of the most kind and selfless people I have ever known. Now I mean selfless in the sense that his ego rarely got in the way of his kindness.

So my lovely psychic friend suggested I try Reiki and told me I would be very good at this. She gave me a mini lesson and had me try it on her. It terrified and exhilarated me all at once. As I quieted my inner critic, I picked up on an energetic issue in her life. It was amazing. She also let me know I have a skill at psychometry, reading the energy of something I touch or hold. I tried that also as she thrust a ring she was wearing into my palm, and I accurately named the energy of the stone in her ring. She described images of me in a past life as a healer, mixing tinctures and handing them out to people.  She gave me the precious gift of confidence in an ability I already knew deep down in my soul, that I had. Now when I feel my hands buzzing, I can dig a little deeper for the message and trust  that I am meant to use this gift.

What gifts might you have that you are not allowing?

“Be assured that, at the right time, God will provide you with the right words to say and a boldness to say them that you never thought possible.” ~Dr. Bruce Wilkinson~

“Thriving is as natural as breathing itself.  By relaxing often and breathing deeply, your natural thriving is enhanced.” ~Abraham-Hicks~


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Appreciation, Graciousness, and Dealing with Disappointment

I meant to write this post in November to coincide with Thanksgiving, but time got away from me and I have to admit self-doubt seeped in about having anything original or fresh to say about these topics.  It could have also been writing overload, with writing assignments due every week for my Humanities class.  Yes, I am back in school after some 13 years or so and loving it so far.  I want to manifest more time to for school so I can attend full-time and that goal is currently in the works.  I am extremely appreciative and grateful for this blessing.  I am studying creative writing and English and I now find myself having to stop and resist writing 10 pages on a 2 page assignment, where as before I went back to school, it was a struggle to get myself to sit down and write.  It is glorious and I love it!  What can I say, the timing was finally right or I was finally willing to open my heart to the joy of sharing my creative gifts.

This leads into my thought quandaries for this post.  What is appreciation?  Is it a feeling that you get when something good happens?  Or is seeing the value in each experience one goes through?  Of course, I grew up thinking that if something good happened that I had wanted or held valuable, I could be grateful for it and show appreciation.  But if something negative or hurtful happened it was a logical reason to show disappointment. But these seemingly natural reactions left me feeling as if my life was controlled by some outside force, rather than my own thoughts and intentions.  Growing up in the Catholic faith taught me many valuable things, such as forgiveness, kindness, morality, and selflessness. However, not until I started to explore the human psyche on my own did I begin to discover the inner workings of my mind and the power of my thoughts and intentions. Now I can not imagine not teaching my own children (another manifestation in the works for me) the tools to create the life they desire through the loving intentions of the mind and heart.

The more I learn about myself and how to continue to expand my consciousness through the study of my thought processes, the easier it is for me to get into that happy, lighthearted, and appreciative mindset.  And it is more than a mindset, it is a heart-centered way of being.  I can physically feel the vibrations coming from my heart when I am in this magical space.  Lately I have been learning more about the Science of Mind teachings of Earnest Holmes.  I found a lovely center, the Greater Philadelphia Center for Spiritual Living, that I now go to just about every Sunday.  It was not my initial intention to attend the service every Sunday and I told myself I would only go if I felt like it.  I did not want it to be an act of obligation, but a celebration of my joy for life.  At first I attended once or twice a month, but then I started to go 3 times a month, now I willingly get out of bed almost every Sunday morning to meet with amazing like-minded people who never fail to inspire me and set me up for a great week ahead.  The richness of spiritual knowledge I have gained from going there and hearing all of the different speakers is something I am definitely truly grateful for.  I feel as if my ability to appreciate where I am in my life keeps expanding.  I am a more gracious and happy person.  I am kinder, especially to myself.  I am using more of my intelligence because I have given myself that permission.  But one of the most valuable things I am grateful for thus far in my spiritual evolution is letting it be.  I let the people around me be who they are.  I appreciate their life path and their growth.  Things that make me uncomfortable I see more as a place where I wish to change and grow.  They are reflecting back to me where I still see myself as lacking in my life.

That brings me to my next, somewhat contradictory subject.  How do I, how do you deal with disappointment?  I must say, I used to be quite dramatic.  I laugh now when I think back to how much pain and suffering I caused myself because I thought that playing out the ultimate drama was the appropriate and suitable thing to do.  I can see it now, those many times that my life rivaled the Greek tragedies of antiquity.  I can laugh now because I am no longer in those spaces.  I did not know any better and dealt with my limited arsenal of mental tools to handle the many disappointments I faced as a child and a young adult.  Now, in my mid 30s, I can see it was a very good thing I did not marry young and have children, like I wanted.  What would I have taught them?  What would I have instilled in them to face the world?  They would have been as lost as I was; floundering in darkness with intermittent streams of hope allotted to me by caring people trying to help.  They would not have known from birth how powerful they are.  Well, they would have known, but I would have possibly helped them to unlearn this and become a functioning part of this world, sacrificing unnecessarily for happiness. So, all these things I thought were disappointments, were really not.  It was just my  (unknowingly at the time) way of building up my creations in my “vortex”, to use an Abraham term.  The less I struggle in my life, the better it becomes.  I now choose to flow from any disappointment into a better solution that is awaiting me.

Most recently I thought I had secured an apartment with a friend.  We had gone to see this newly renovated, adorable place, set back in a secluded area, right next to a trail that could take us miles in either direction.  It was perfect, or so we thought.  The landlord took back the offer he had given us after consulting with a “friend” on the terms of payment he had agreed upon.  The new amount he was asking for, was over our budget, but immediately we realized it was a blessing in disguise.  He was a new landlord and really did not know what he was doing as far as rental terms.  It would have been a risky endeavor for us both to deal with this nice, but nervous person.  I can say my disappointment only lasted a few days.  There was only a limited amount of self despair, of telling myself there was something wrong with me because I could not afford what this person asked, and thinking I would never get my own place again.  I had even told people at the Sunday spiritual service how easy it was to get my apartment and that is was meant to be.  It wasn’t and I am more that okay with that.

So, in my eyes, these three things create a beautiful cycle of emotional development that is important to the human existence.  Without some disappointment, how would we know how to truly appreciate when things do go wonderfully or be gracious for all of the uplifting people and circumstances in our lives.  Nothing is really bad, it just a sign for redirection.  A harmonious and abundant holiday season to all.

“Be thankful for what you have; you’ll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don’t have, you will never, ever have enough” ~ Oprah Winfrey~

“Appreciation is a wonderful thing. It makes what is excellent in others belong to us as well.” ~Voltaire~


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I’m Dreaming…

What would it take for you to follow your dreams and push yourself into your happy space? Do you let the opinions of others sway what’s in your heart? I have let the many opinions of others affect my beliefs and choices over the years, but the power of the heart and the power of the spirit is unending and I continually come back to my senses. I find myself on the cusp of something and I do not want to stop.  I am finally taking this manifesting thing seriously, as in it is not just a distant concept or something I try to do once in a while.  This is the only way I can now live my life and I know that every day, every week that goes by, I improve my efforts, my beliefs, and my thought processes.  And of course at the center of all of that is my heart.  I realize my heart does not just keep my physical body alive, it is the life force and connector of all there is.  The energy of the heart is so intense, it can overcome any obstacle presented in all paths of life.

I have been listening to a few new teachers lately, Kryon (an angelic being channelled by Lee Carroll), Eckart Tolle, and Sonia Choquette.  They are all extremely unique and different, but the essence of these teachers’ words and all the teachers I have ever read or listened to is connecting to the heart.  Our heart is like our direct line to source, the higher self, the essence of the universe.  Now when I am afraid or feeling hurt or confused, I know exactly where to turn.  I find something to remind me of where I came from, or as Abraham says so often “get into the vortex and then…” So, I am diving on in, because what happens when I do is incredible! And sometimes I have to stay in that quiet place for quite some time to find myself again, but I always do.

So many people are awakening to the true nature of being human.  Dysfunction and suffering will always exist in the physical plane to a certain extent however, I see bright lights everywhere or maybe I am just more tuned into the people who are beacons of hope and personal power.

I see or sense this light all around me now, all the time.  It is in my cat who knew he was mine the second he stepped into my home.  It is in the sunshine and nature that surrounds me, bringing me peace and healing.  It is in paying off of dept and going back to school.  It is in the words of this blog as I stretch my muscles as a writer.  It is in the hundreds of YouTube videos offering free teaching and tools to help me live my life at a higher vibration. It is in an unexpected hug from my brother for washing the sink full of dishes after he made a delicious dinner.  And the best part of all of this is the more I learn and apply, the less drudgery I realize is needed to live the happy life of my dreams.  Simply focus on what gives you joy and ask for what you are wanting, and of course let go and let it in.

So, what is the point of this happy ranting?  I recently received and unexpected gift from the universe after I simply asked and did not negate that asking with doubts and reasons it would not work.  I saw a voice over job that I wanted to do, but did not know how I could with my work schedule.  Normally, I would wistfully ask and become awash in the seeping doubts as to why it wouldn’t work and why I did not deserve to have it.  This time I stopped and said, “I do not have to know how, simply what.”  The next day I was contacted by the casting company that listed the job and asked to do a print job ( not the voice over job, but just as good) paying the most money I had ever made on a gig, the equivalent to half a months pay at my full-time job. I had one floating holiday left for the year and I will be using it to do this job.  I was in shock, in a good way, the rest of the day. In the past I would have thought this blessing was a lucky occurance or it could only come from hard work. But I know it is the truth revealing itself when resistance is gone.

I have also been working on releasing my rigid concept of linear time. Knowing that time is actually round and full and rich with possibilities eases the pressure of having to know how my many dreams could possibly happen. It is like the blinders have been take off my eyes and I can see everywhere all at once and it is glorious.

“It’s okay to get in the muck of my human experiences and not doubt my divine goodness.” ~Sonia Choquette ~

“Nothing is more important than that I feel good…” ~ Abraham-Hicks~


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A Million and One Ways to get into Alignment

Every day I want to get up and remember I have choices.  I can choose to perpetuate the negative self talk and circumstances I have brought into my life, or  I can contribute to my success and happiness in life by finding powerful ways each day to be in alignment with what I am wanting.  I have so many ways I can do this, I do not have to be restrictive.  I just want to be as free as possible; from judgement, from the scrutiny of myself and others, from current circumstances, and current surroundings.  I know I can lift myself right up and out of any negative circumstances into the reality that I want.  It is right there, overlaying the panic,anxiety, fear, pain, poverty, and anger.  It is there brightly shining, pumping blood through my heart and into my body.

I wrote this mini manifesto about six months ago while in the midst of working on a mural, working several odd jobs and feeling uncertain about my immediate future.  I had many emotionally anguishing days, but also surges of hope would spring forth and I felt the need to write them down.  I had started to do a daily “workshop”  in which I would focus for about ten to twenty minutes or so and write, think, and feel, everything I wanted to happen for that day, which would spill over into things I wanted for my life in general.  It’s as if once I got going I didn’t want to stop.   It felt amazing, like I was really constructing my life.

I will call this my Abraham phase when I was really delving deeply into the Abraham teachings for the first time.  For those that don’t know, Abraham is a channeled being by Esther Hicks.  Whether or not you believe that to be true, the wisdom and knowledge that the group of beings called Abraham put forth, I found fascinating and valuable.  My life was becoming more and more malleable, maybe not yet totally apparent on the outside, but my mind was changing into a more fluid stream of thoughts and ideas on the inside.

Little things would happen that I asked for in my workshops and I realized the power of my thoughts and feelings.  I had also been practicing Nichiren Buddhism for about 5 years at this point and experienced profound things happen in my life as a result of that.  I think the first book I read specifically about the Law of Attraction was “The Secret”, by Rhonda Byrne, which is kind of like a beginners course in the law of attraction.  I remember just thinking about the concept was a huge deal.

I am now also listening to another channeled being called Bashar, who talks very matter of fact about the universe and how we fit into it.  And again, whether or not you believe what is being said , it is something that opens your mind up to new possibilities and ways of thinking and processing information.  I am reading a book on EFT, a form of tapping on energy points along your energy meridian while saying “your truth” and then following it up with affirmations.  The author is Nick Ortner, a phenomenal presence in the self-help field at present.  I am reading “A Course in Miracles”, which I discovered about 4 years ago from a book called “The Disappearance of the Universe”, by Gary Renard.  I found Louise L. Hay in my 20s and she was fundamental in helping me be aware of the words I use and changing negative thought patterns.  I discovered Summer McStravick and a process she developed called flowdreaming.  A very unique and fun way of getting into alignment and and manifesting.  I have read so many books by Dr. Wayne Dyer.  I could go on, but listing all of the teachers I have learned from is not my main point.

I have appreciated all of them because I feel each one has come along at precisely the right moment into my life.  I do not believe that we present ourselves with any challenges for which we are not capable of finding solutions.  I have never believed there is one right way to do things.  In fact, I have come to a place in my life where I believe there actually is no right or wrong, for me it is only what I prefer and do not prefer.  All of it we learn from.  The more our mass consciousness expands, the more people and beings  are reaching out to help others along on this journey.

If even one person was helped by another person’s perspective, knowledge and wisdom , then the purpose has been served.  One of my therapists I had in the past said to me, ” There are a million and one ways to skin a cat”.  This metaphor served as a powerful message for me.  Not only to be more accepting of other people’s ways of doing things, but to open myself up to different possibilities.  If one way does not work, there are endless more ways.  I have never forgotten that.  And the more I learn about myself and except myself, the more free I become and the more free those around me become.

Whatever way you choose to get into alignment with your happiness, have fun with it and let yourself become as free as possible.

 

“Keep in mind that neither success nor failure is ever final”

~Roger Ward Babson~Entrepreneur, Economist, Writer, Philanthropist

 

“Everyone who will can hear the inner voice.  It is within everyone.”

~Mahatma Gandhi~