Adventures of Spirit

My spiritual adventures and manifesting discoveries


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Saying “Yes!” to my Gifts

Recently, I have become aware that I have certain gifts as a healer. We all have gifts to heal, but I was encouraged to develop a specific gift of energy work to bring healing and love to others.  I believe we all have what one would term “psychic” ability. It is our intuitive ability, our “gut” feeling about things. Or it is our ability to pray and speak to God/spirit/the universe/our higher selves.  Whatever it is labeled, it is a powerful innate force within every single person. All of the unseen energies of the world affect us greatly in our daily lives. The energy of gravity keeps us physically rooted to this planet earth. The energy of sound waves delights our ears with music, conversation, or noise. Light energy gives our eyes a symphony of colors and shapes that we interpret as we like. There is the energy that courses through our body from the miracle of cells, composed of atoms, composed of particles.  I have always been a very sensitive person to the energies I feel in a room, in which I reacted to by being shy as a child because I did not understand what was happening. Now I know I was picking up on all the energy of the people around me and I did not know how to interpret it all; it felt overwhelming and scary.

I developed many disorders as a teenager and young adult to cope with my sensitivity and created negative life experiences because of this misunderstanding. I just didn’t know this sensitivity was a gift!  As an adult, the more I learn of the energetic and spiritual realms, the happier I become. I now know, life is not about toil and struggle. It is not A=B=C.  Life is a dance, it can be fun to come up with new ways things can be accomplished and created, to take a break from routine, to delight in the unexpected.

I recently received my 2nd spiritual reading from a lovely psychic; whom I must say has changed my life since my soul led me discover her over a year ago at a spiritual expo.  As I sat down to listen to a mini lecture of what she does for her clients, she picked me for a free demonstration.  My intuition told me I would be selected for her demonstration and she proceeded to hand out cards with a number on them.  When she called my number I walked up to the chair in front of the audience.  She balanced my chakras, then whispered in my ear, ” Have you been looking for a job?”

I replied, “Yes.”

She then whispered, “Don’t worry. You will find one in about two months.”

I was stunned and excited. Two months later I was hired for my current full-time job.  As I began wanting more confirmation on my which way my life was headed, I scheduled a full reading with her about six months later. She confirmed things I never thought would happen to me.  These were good things, getting married, having children, having a successful career as a mural artist, and eventually a writer.  I wrote as fast as I could so I could recount all the exciting details to my mother when I returned home.  I learned who my spirit guides were and which angels were around me and even received a beautiful message from my grandmother, whom I had never met.  I left floating on a cloud and became transfixed by my exciting future ahead.  She left me with hope for my life that I had never experienced before.  I was terrified of repeating negative family patterns and now I stand confident to create the life of my dreams.  She also told me during that reading I would be moving into my own place again in May of the next year.  It is now March and I moving!  Needless to say I trust her readings. She is humble, accurate, and a very healing person to be around.

During my second reading, what impressed upon me the most was that I am a healer. I think it was because I always knew this from the time I was very young. In kindergarten, I had this strong desire to be like Jesus, selfless, kind, and a healer. When I was a bit older I wanted to be like Mother Theresa and Princess Diana. I also adored my grandfather, one of the most kind and selfless people I have ever known. Now I mean selfless in the sense that his ego rarely got in the way of his kindness.

So my lovely psychic friend suggested I try Reiki and told me I would be very good at this. She gave me a mini lesson and had me try it on her. It terrified and exhilarated me all at once. As I quieted my inner critic, I picked up on an energetic issue in her life. It was amazing. She also let me know I have a skill at psychometry, reading the energy of something I touch or hold. I tried that also as she thrust a ring she was wearing into my palm, and I accurately named the energy of the stone in her ring. She described images of me in a past life as a healer, mixing tinctures and handing them out to people.  She gave me the precious gift of confidence in an ability I already knew deep down in my soul, that I had. Now when I feel my hands buzzing, I can dig a little deeper for the message and trust  that I am meant to use this gift.

What gifts might you have that you are not allowing?

“Be assured that, at the right time, God will provide you with the right words to say and a boldness to say them that you never thought possible.” ~Dr. Bruce Wilkinson~

“Thriving is as natural as breathing itself.  By relaxing often and breathing deeply, your natural thriving is enhanced.” ~Abraham-Hicks~


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Appreciation, Graciousness, and Dealing with Disappointment

I meant to write this post in November to coincide with Thanksgiving, but time got away from me and I have to admit self-doubt seeped in about having anything original or fresh to say about these topics.  It could have also been writing overload, with writing assignments due every week for my Humanities class.  Yes, I am back in school after some 13 years or so and loving it so far.  I want to manifest more time to for school so I can attend full-time and that goal is currently in the works.  I am extremely appreciative and grateful for this blessing.  I am studying creative writing and English and I now find myself having to stop and resist writing 10 pages on a 2 page assignment, where as before I went back to school, it was a struggle to get myself to sit down and write.  It is glorious and I love it!  What can I say, the timing was finally right or I was finally willing to open my heart to the joy of sharing my creative gifts.

This leads into my thought quandaries for this post.  What is appreciation?  Is it a feeling that you get when something good happens?  Or is seeing the value in each experience one goes through?  Of course, I grew up thinking that if something good happened that I had wanted or held valuable, I could be grateful for it and show appreciation.  But if something negative or hurtful happened it was a logical reason to show disappointment. But these seemingly natural reactions left me feeling as if my life was controlled by some outside force, rather than my own thoughts and intentions.  Growing up in the Catholic faith taught me many valuable things, such as forgiveness, kindness, morality, and selflessness. However, not until I started to explore the human psyche on my own did I begin to discover the inner workings of my mind and the power of my thoughts and intentions. Now I can not imagine not teaching my own children (another manifestation in the works for me) the tools to create the life they desire through the loving intentions of the mind and heart.

The more I learn about myself and how to continue to expand my consciousness through the study of my thought processes, the easier it is for me to get into that happy, lighthearted, and appreciative mindset.  And it is more than a mindset, it is a heart-centered way of being.  I can physically feel the vibrations coming from my heart when I am in this magical space.  Lately I have been learning more about the Science of Mind teachings of Earnest Holmes.  I found a lovely center, the Greater Philadelphia Center for Spiritual Living, that I now go to just about every Sunday.  It was not my initial intention to attend the service every Sunday and I told myself I would only go if I felt like it.  I did not want it to be an act of obligation, but a celebration of my joy for life.  At first I attended once or twice a month, but then I started to go 3 times a month, now I willingly get out of bed almost every Sunday morning to meet with amazing like-minded people who never fail to inspire me and set me up for a great week ahead.  The richness of spiritual knowledge I have gained from going there and hearing all of the different speakers is something I am definitely truly grateful for.  I feel as if my ability to appreciate where I am in my life keeps expanding.  I am a more gracious and happy person.  I am kinder, especially to myself.  I am using more of my intelligence because I have given myself that permission.  But one of the most valuable things I am grateful for thus far in my spiritual evolution is letting it be.  I let the people around me be who they are.  I appreciate their life path and their growth.  Things that make me uncomfortable I see more as a place where I wish to change and grow.  They are reflecting back to me where I still see myself as lacking in my life.

That brings me to my next, somewhat contradictory subject.  How do I, how do you deal with disappointment?  I must say, I used to be quite dramatic.  I laugh now when I think back to how much pain and suffering I caused myself because I thought that playing out the ultimate drama was the appropriate and suitable thing to do.  I can see it now, those many times that my life rivaled the Greek tragedies of antiquity.  I can laugh now because I am no longer in those spaces.  I did not know any better and dealt with my limited arsenal of mental tools to handle the many disappointments I faced as a child and a young adult.  Now, in my mid 30s, I can see it was a very good thing I did not marry young and have children, like I wanted.  What would I have taught them?  What would I have instilled in them to face the world?  They would have been as lost as I was; floundering in darkness with intermittent streams of hope allotted to me by caring people trying to help.  They would not have known from birth how powerful they are.  Well, they would have known, but I would have possibly helped them to unlearn this and become a functioning part of this world, sacrificing unnecessarily for happiness. So, all these things I thought were disappointments, were really not.  It was just my  (unknowingly at the time) way of building up my creations in my “vortex”, to use an Abraham term.  The less I struggle in my life, the better it becomes.  I now choose to flow from any disappointment into a better solution that is awaiting me.

Most recently I thought I had secured an apartment with a friend.  We had gone to see this newly renovated, adorable place, set back in a secluded area, right next to a trail that could take us miles in either direction.  It was perfect, or so we thought.  The landlord took back the offer he had given us after consulting with a “friend” on the terms of payment he had agreed upon.  The new amount he was asking for, was over our budget, but immediately we realized it was a blessing in disguise.  He was a new landlord and really did not know what he was doing as far as rental terms.  It would have been a risky endeavor for us both to deal with this nice, but nervous person.  I can say my disappointment only lasted a few days.  There was only a limited amount of self despair, of telling myself there was something wrong with me because I could not afford what this person asked, and thinking I would never get my own place again.  I had even told people at the Sunday spiritual service how easy it was to get my apartment and that is was meant to be.  It wasn’t and I am more that okay with that.

So, in my eyes, these three things create a beautiful cycle of emotional development that is important to the human existence.  Without some disappointment, how would we know how to truly appreciate when things do go wonderfully or be gracious for all of the uplifting people and circumstances in our lives.  Nothing is really bad, it just a sign for redirection.  A harmonious and abundant holiday season to all.

“Be thankful for what you have; you’ll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don’t have, you will never, ever have enough” ~ Oprah Winfrey~

“Appreciation is a wonderful thing. It makes what is excellent in others belong to us as well.” ~Voltaire~


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Evolve or Die

This topic grabbed my attention a few weeks ago at a Science of Mind service.  The reverend was speaking candidly about how he came into his path of ministry.  I do not remember much of the details of his story, but at a critical point in his journey, he was told you either evolve into where your spirit is guiding you or you suffer from your resistance.  I found it both a funny and hard-hitting statement about the constant change of life and how we handle it.

The rather dramatic topic made me think of all the times in my life, which is more than I would like to admit, when I thought I knew better than my spirit about where I should be headed next.  Even as I write this, I am experiencing an interesting phenomenon.  Usually, once I have my topic, the energy of the words flows through me and onto the screen in a fairly free-flowing and cohesive manner. Today, I am distracted and feeling rather distant.  Maybe it is the rainy weather.  Maybe it is a bit of writing fatigue, as I have just started an English Composition course to continue my education.   Maybe I am now over thinking things as I write; worrying about grammar, punctuation, and style.  Whatever is happening here, I am just letting myself off the hook today. I am evolving, rather than struggling.

I fear perhaps in my life right now, I am not really listening to myself.  I still hesitate and struggle to go where I know my spirit is taking me.  I am stubborn to forgive and move forward with certain aspects of my life.  I hold harsh judgements of where I currently am.  Sometimes, when this happens, you can sense you are on the cusp of change.  So, I am letting this be an awkward and raw writing experience.  Perhaps I am not exploring spirituality today, so much as my own psyche.  I can feel where I want to go, but am not fully trusting of the way things will unfold.  This is past residue from other attempts I have made, when my belief system was such, that I fell back practically to where I started.

Evolving then, is rarely a smooth and easy experience.  It certainly can be, of course, but at certain points along the way you run into these giant brick walls that seem to go on for miles, with no foreseeable way to be scaled. This is where I think the world’s consciousness is currently at.  We are perhaps realizing physically overcoming the obstacles in front of us is not the answer, nor was it ever meant to be.  The point of life is NOT to struggle.  The point of life is to be happy.  The answer to our prayers is not half way across the world or the conclusion of a tumultuous task or journey, but it is the steady, calm knowing within. This does not mean hard work and effort are not meaningful, for when these things are done because you truly love to do them, it becomes a whole powerful energy unto itself.

Evolving can be done in big grand gestures, small graceful movements, or anywhere in between.  I tend to allow my personal evolution to come in smaller movements, as my analytical and observant nature requires more processing time.  However, I know that as I evolve those fears will dissipate, for I will be more centered and sure of the nonphysical mind that guides me and not afraid to take the occasional giant leap.

“Love is the energy from which all people and things are made. You are connected to everything in your world through love.” ~Brian L. Weiss, M.D.~

“Take a risk. You have the power to move mountains.” ~Cheryl Richardson~